Actually, I think I'll go back to how I thought when I first came here. When I didn't know that "Kevin" had been in a relationship with someone else (ouch, that still hurts) for a while. When I didn't know what I know about him now.
He's on his journey. He can have all the time and space in the world.
His journey created my unwilling journey.
What have I learned, am learning?
If I think about what is good for me, I do very well. When I think about "Kevin", I get all annoyed and icky. So, once again, no more "Kevin" thought.
I will live a wholesome life with an emphasis on the good, on raising my children, on being involved in my health, well being and community. I will actively seek support as needed, whether it be through friends, health care, mental and physical well being or whatever works.
My life will be my own, my mistakes and failures my own, learning from both. I will acceptance who I am. I'll work on the weakness and build the strengths.
I will forgive myself when I screw up, tell my negative voice within that it can't talk to me that way anymore, be direct and stand tall.
I'll be me; sunshine, joy, laughter, warts and all.
