Doing some journaling. S10 had baseball game this morning. W again was in a good mood and we got along great. Felt like old times. She would even grab my arm when S10 went up to bat as she was nervous, she use to do this quite a bit. Their team got beat in the first game so the day was short lived with the family but it was a pretty good day.
On a side note, when we left the field, S10 called me from W's cell to ask if I wanted to go and ride gokarts later on today. He told me that he, S7 and W wanted to go. I said sure, give me a call later on when you decide to go. Well that was around 11:00 this morning, I never recieved a call from them. They just came by my house about 30 minutes ago and S still had ball uniform on, I asked him what they were up to and he said they just left Adventure Landing. I asked, I thought you were going to call me when you went. He said mom didn't want us to. Well about this time, W walks in the house and overhears him say this. She corrected him and said, "no, I told ya'll after we went to the store that we needed to go home and see if your father wanted to come with us but you two were so anxious to go that you didn't want to wait now isn't that right?" S said yes. So he was trying to make me think it was W's fault. Either way it made me feel good that I was at least thought of by W to go with them even though both sons were too anxious to wait. "Adventure Landing is only about a mile from the store they went to."
Now the reason I see this as being a good sign is because when I first moved to the place I am in now, our family went out to eat 2-3 times that week. I made a comment to W that we needed to carry the kids to ride gokarts at one of these parks. She seemed agreeing at the time, but of course I had to make a mistake later in that week and sent her an email of how this last week with us spending time together made it feel like we were a family again. Guess what, she decided it was not a good thing for the 4 of us to go to the park after this. So yes, I was really surprised that I did get that call today asking to go.
I will keep doing what I am doing. I have really done well this past week. I don't find myself thinking about our sitch every waking hour of the day which is a huge relief for me. I feel things are going in the right direction, I know there will be highs and lows as there were last week but I didn't dwell on them everytime they happened with her.
S7 has ballgame tomorrow night, so hopefully that will go over well also.
