Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

Don't get me wrong. I am not pushing her away. I really see the couples sessions as something that will help the two of us or hope that it will. I am skeptical of the couples counseling because she has not committed to it yet. She keeps bringing it up, but I cannot make her call the therapist and make that appointment. I am going regularly and she is supposedly going to her counselor but, there has been no movement on a joint session. I think that it would be helpful, but I cannot push her into it. She already accuses me of trying to control her. I never thought I did, but apparently she does. For that reason I am being very cautious as we persue it. I bring it up occasionally, but do not push. In my opinion, her counselor is not a very good one. We went to couples with her after my daughter died. Basically W had been telling her in sessions about me and all the things I had done to her or said, then when i got in there for a group session, she just turned on me and started grilling me. I never went back. It was not a healthy environment.

Me being cautious is because I have yet to see a summons or a dismissal. So, as of right now, there is no proof either way. I do not trust her lawyer on this. I believe her in that all of this is not what she wanted, but I also think that her lawyer is talking her into things that she does not want to do. I don't trust the lawyers. That compounded with the fact that she never brings up anything about the current situation it is impossible to get anything done. We cannot finalize or do anything forwards. Very hard to plan for.

I am still working on myself, but mainly looking for just time to sit and watch tv. Work is extremely hectic right now and there is no time to relax. That combined with horrific seasonal allergies... ugh, they have never been this bad!!