H is Having Affair after all - Part 2

[Evie]

Jen, hope you enjoyed every single mouthful of your chinese meal and beer!!!! You have to have a blow out every so often....

Thanks Jen & seek for your positive thoughts.

Just when i was feeling a little less numb and shell shocked about the events of the last week, I was told by H's good friend that he is sure that H & ow are still seeing each other...

A few weeks ago H was sat with friend working out our finances and good friend said to H, 'you know if you and ow are planning to be togther in the future you save money by renting together'. (friend said he honestly doesn't know if affair is still going on, but if he was a betting man, he would bet it still was)

H must have said something to ow b/c she then txtd friend and told him to mind his own business b/c she wasn't ready to make that commitment yet.

So they are still seeing one another. OK, but why continue to lie and deny? why say it was over b4 it started, they were just good friends and he had no intention of going back to her. Just what is his plan, why continue to treat me as a fool?

I believed him as well. I feel a fool. I was on here yesterday looking for positivity. I can't be friends right now b/c i've had more and i want more and b/c i'm still angry/hurt etc. I left the site yesterday with hope again that we may still have hope and decided i would try and act in accordance with DB, to get back on track. I have said a lot of things this past week, not regretable stuff, not hurtful stuff like he has said to me or to D1. I know i need to back off again. He doesn't see that he is so messing with my head, that he has done over the last 12/18 months.

He will relentlessly pursue her if that is what he wants. If he has promised her a future this would explain her cockiness around me. The thought of her with my kids makes me so mad.