Try to keep H out of the equation when a landmark comes up, like this one. Look at the (sorry!) glass as half full. You have a lovely daughter and you are there to celebrate her life and that is what counts right now.
I remember one thing my father told me oen day, that each time he'd talk to my sis (whom we hadn't seen for years and had move with her H and kids to another country) he'd picture her as an 8yr old with pigtails, she was always his little girl. So, there she is , 18yrs old, but still your little girl
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.