nutty chick mentioned a journal, write down ALL that has happened, the cycles, the lies, whatever had gone through your life and take in account the big picture. And ask yourself "what do I want in a man" and look at H and see if that is what you want, if what he is now is what you'd want in your life.
The only way I've gotten out of that painful state of mind of "where, when and with whom" about H, is through God. THe whole thing is too horribly painful, and I literally shove it God's way and tell him to take it, 'cause I just can't deal with it nor have the strenght to do it. I've stopped (ok, try each day) worrying and just have faith that God will pull me through it all and I will do just great.
Prayer your way c))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
