Yesterday was tough for me. I dont know why. It wasnt any different than any other day. Went to my son's ball game. At the end of it I had this overcoming sadness hit me. My H wanted to know what was wrong. I said nothing. Then after we were getting the kids situated he came over to me and said. I want to ask you something. Has your lawyer said anything about the figures I gave you. He was talking about his retirement stuff. I told him that I havent given her the figures because things keep changing between us so often that I didnt know what to do. He just told me it was up to me to do anything with the papers. ??? I kinda got a little upset but tried not to let it show. He again asked what was wrong. I told him that I just wasnt expecting him to ask me about the papers at that time. He said to me "well, I just wanted to know if the lawyer had checked out the figures and if they were right, just something I had been wondering about".
So, we left the game and he tried calling me again and asked if I was ok. I just told him point blank....I missed him and wanted him to come home. All he said was "I know". I really didnt say much else. But had to say that much.
Im just down today. Wanting to cry some more.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
