I think she's back

[Starshyne]

I have several threads over at piecing. But now things look in my eyes that H is back with the OW or with another OW. Yesterday two major things happened. I called H on his cell phone to tell him that I was going to out shopping. When I called him he said "Hi Amanda" (Ow's name) He said this was a mistake and appologized over and over about it. THEN...after he came home I found a receipt dated Saturday for roses. He gave me a REALLY LAME excuse about that. There are other little things that are standing out in my mind that by themselves wouldn't mean anything, but all put together point straight to an affair.

I am really at a loss. I refuse to go back to my life in December-February when H was involved wit OW and coming home to shower and eat his lunch. I don't think emotionally I could handle it all over again. H won't leave the house because his name is on the mortage and I don't have a legal right to make him leave. I don't want to go file for a seperation or divorce but right now I feel like that is my only choice to get him out.

If I confront him about the OW, he denies it totally. I hate that. I wish he'd just admit what I already know in my heart.

I feel so confused. It is extremely difficult to make these big decisions when you are scared and alone and hurt.

Sara