Well, I didn't go out with H on Friday night. I called him after work and just told him that I already had plans. Looking back, maybe I should have gone with him because I think I would have been ready to have my talk with him. Now my anger has subsided a bit.
Yes Michelle I wanted to smack him when he said he didn't make the whole payment. I asked him if he thought he should sell it and he told me he would do whatever I thought he should do. What I wish he would do is grow up and get his sh!t together! Sara, I think our Hs are a lot alike when it comes to responsibility.
So I am thinking I am going to call him today and tell him I need to talk. I need to tell him that we are either working on this or we aren't. If we are working on it, then I need certain things(move in together, pay bills together, counseling, him to open up about his affair..and why it ended, him to be an open book with me) and if we aren't working on it, then I need certain things (separate ourselves financially so that his problems are no longer mine, file for D).
I am also going to tell him that I cannot gaurantee that I will be able to work through it..but I am willing to try. I think that he thinks he is the only one confused about what he wants...I am too. I am not sure I can completely forgive him and let go, but the difference is that I am willing to try. If he isn't, then I need him to let me go and let me move on.
We will see if I get the nerve for this. I NEED to do it. I am at the end of my rope.
