Thank you guys. I have been in tough situations before, but this is the worst. What I keep thinking (also if I don't want to) is the fact that W, after years of M and having built wonderful family decided that I am NOT good enough for her, while this other guy is. It is very personal and a big hit on my self esteem. I have been reading DR and DB forward and backward, like a bible. I think the midlife crisis chapter, in some way fits the picture of what is happening with my W, also if W is just 36 - but she keeps saying that "this, with OM, is her last chance to have the family she wants, if she doesn't take this chance she is going to be too old to find somebody else" - this is something I can't swallow. I found a name for my plan, I called it "the wonderful me". I know is a bit childish, but I try to picture myself as a superhero.... Mr. Wonderful Me. Wonderful Me is a heck of a guy, very positive and taken care, happy and social. Every time I speak with W, or I lay down desperate in bed, I try to force myself and ask? What would Wonderful Me do? I don't know if is going to work out, but at least I am amusing myself a bit.
