Internet friendships?

[kolle]

Sandi

This is mostly boring detail of my life, I am astounded that you actually read my posts. I mainly post it to journal my emotions, I think it is kinda therapeutic. But your wisdom has already helped me a lot, and I thank you for that.

Of course your medical advice is spot on. Like Alice in Wonderland I give myself very good advice but very seldom listen to me. I am taking it daily now.

I don't think she knew what the movie was about. The husband in the movie was a controlling a$$h*le, but as you said in a previous post, aren't we all?

She is painting a massive canvas at the moment (almost 6 X 8 feet), a commission for people. She has to do a portrait of the wife with her face on the body of a mermaid, swimming with a school of fish. So she asks me my opinion about the arms etc, which I give, and then I say, you should give her a belly ring and mystical mermaid tatoos. I'm not serious, just fantasizing with her about this mermaid. She gets angry and tells me "I'll do what I want, gees, you even want to control how I paint!"

So my anger kicks in, mostly because the big lie between us is taht I am trying to control her, and partly because I felt that she was really unfair. I did not mean it like that anyway. So I give her a piece of my mind and storm out the room. I get in my car and go for a long walk on hte beach. Very therapeutic. It is cold and misty with a strong southeaster blowing, it sorts of remind you that you are alive.

When I get back to the house I apologise for losing my temper, and she says since I leave the house without telling her where I am going she's going to do the same. I say, heavens, do you want to be married to me or not? If you show me your emails to OM I will tell you where I go. She says, I'm not writing to OM. I say, yea sure.

I downloaded Michele's video seminar from the internet on Friday. So last night I ask her to watch it with me. She says I have a snowball's hope that she'll watch it with me, but she may check it out on her own. I tell her where to find it in My Documents. So now I pray that she will watch it.

I still believe in miracles.

Kolle