Thank you so much, Sara, for answering me. I kept hitting the refresh button over and over waiting for SOMEONE to tell me what an idiot I am. I know I love my husband, otherwise you are right, I would have divorced him and went away with someone else by now. It has been a total of three hellish and selfish years, wasted as I betrayed him. From my last post, you probably don't hear the guilt but oh, believe me, it is there. My priest says it is good to always have a little guilt, that it is because we believe in God that we have guilt at all. I want to make this work and I need to stop myself from going into "la la land" fantasizing about the attention I got from these guys and start focusing on how to make my marriage satisfying for both he and I. If he is not meeting my needs, then I am going to keep working on how he can and vice versa. We have talked about Retrovaille and plan on going in July. I'm going to need to keep coming back for support because I feel the pull to text the other guy, email the other guy, message the other guy, call the other guy all the time! I'm staying strong but it is very hard and I get so sad. How long will it take for me to get over this....I want to get over it....
