Ouch....don't you hate when you backslide like that? I know I do it all the time. I have learned recently that H actually appreciates it more when I let him spend time alone with the kids. I have had a hard time with that, but it really has eased things a bit. I know it is hard to keep your mouth shut when inside you are screaming, but you are just gonna have to keep your cool around him. Starting a fight with him is just proving him right. You can do this. Just keep doing the things you know are right, and stop doing the things you know don't work.