Just when I see some positives I have to mess up again. I can't seem to keep my trap closed. Today H brought D and I to the club and in the 15 minutes it took us to get there I started a fight. It all stems from H wanting to move on and change some things in his life while I try and convince him that we can go through changes together and that he doesn't have to D me to change...etc. He told me that even if he did give us another chance we would still fight too much and coming home wouldn't make him happy right now. He's throwing the clear messages of what needs to be changed at me and I'm missing them. I really need to put in more of an effort. Needless to say we fought in the car and when we got to the club he practically booted me out!
I think I'll ask for a 2X4!!! Let me have it.
Tomorrow he's taking D out again but this time I won't suggest anything about going like I did last week. After all Sunday is the only day H and D get to spend alone.
Jen
Last edited by JenInVen; 04/20/0802:04 AM.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
