Drowning after 23 years!

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So I post this, then go downstairs. I am such a wuss...

I am really nervous about going to this dinner. Haven't seen these friends since the S - they all know. I have lost 32 lbs which is very noticable. So I tell W I will need her help if I start to breakdown. She asked what I needed, I said I don't know but I don't want to make her uncomfortable. (puppy, see a trend here). Then I go and say that during these next few months that we need to reestablish our friendship - WTF was I thinking??? Then go on to tell her that I overreacted about who moves out in September, we have plenty of time to discuss. The reason I did that was to hopefully keep her away from the L...

I am so weak right now. The ironic part is that I am not this way normally! I need to "grow a pair" and get my butt in gear. I have only been DBing for a short time, and I think I have backslid more than I have made progress! I feel as if I am further behind than when I started.