Joie, NO I am not ready to throw in the towel just sick of the situation and was having a bad few days. I cant seem to keep focused on myself and I worry too much about what H is doing. I am trying to stop that.
On the other hand H came over today and we had a really great day. Spent lots of time as a family, got alot done around the house. S19mo loved being with his dad and spending the day outdoors. H said he has not been out with OW in a long time. (not sure how long that is to him) and he told me he loved me today. Havent heard that in a really really long time. It was nice to hear especially after I have been having my doubts the last few days. H is coming over tomorrow to put up a new swingset for son so that will be nice to have. I think i was just being paranoid because when I really sit and think about things or type them out on here I can see he appears to be trying and moving in the right direction. Again I have never been a patient person, and of course who dosent want things to move quicker than they are but the reality is way different. Thanks so much for always keeping me in check Joie and reminding me to stay focused. You have helped so much
