I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

Thanks, Jbly. I am really working on my thinking, recognizing that what you focus on expands. I am also trying to stay in the present and not get so hung up on the past or worry about the future. I've never really believed that "everything happens for a reason" - but maybe I need to trust the universe more. I am stressed today because I don't know what to expect when he comes to the house or even when he will show up, so I am trying to go about my own business and not think about him at all. But, there is this dread/anxiety in the pit of my stomach, anyway.

Just realized - I have no plans for the weekend. Maybe I should try to think of something I would enjoy doing this evening so that I have something to look forward to.

Good luck with your lady friend - it sounds like you are in a much better place emotionally than when you first introduced yourself. Maybe time and space will help you both.