Was having a really hard day yesterday. Worked a really long day. Got invited to a party going on today by a girl that has been calling me. End of the work day, I am feeling very emotional and can't stop thinking of WW. As I work, my eyes keep welling up. What is wrong with me. I want my best friend back. On way home, start to cry. Closer to home, regain composure. Be strong for the kids and don't want WW to see me emotional. Find out D6 had a very bad day as well. Note from art teacher says she's concerned about behavior. D6 was trying to cut her hand with scissors. She has done this before. Not listening. Breaking supplies. This has been happening. Again, I am sad. I take note to WW who apperantly has not read note yet. D6 is asleep in nephew room. I tell WW I am concerned about this. She reads note and looks upset, also and goes to wake up D6. Starts to ask questions that D6 doesn't answer. Then asks "Are upset or sad about Mommy and Daddy?" D6 starts to cry and says yes. D6 then tells how she sent to her room by D11 when they got home and then in trouble again by S14. WW is angry at them. She talks to every one about it is the parents job to punish, not them. S14 ends up understanding, but D11 is really upset. WW talks about the changes in us, and yes, it is all her fault. Again, she takes the blame in front of the kids for what is going on between us. D11 starts to hyperventilate.
As we are trying to calm her down, I am growing more and more angry. She is doing this to us. She is causing the kids emotional problems. I am not going to let this happen anymore. I now realize what I have to do. She is going. I want her out. I am going to tell the older kids, S14 and nephew, the truth today. I am not going out. I will stay home with the kids, and let her go out. I will contact an attorney this coming week. I have now reached my point. Trying to stay calm so that I don't say anything stupid. Checked her phone this morning and the recent calls seem to be erased from the previous day, but not the incoming, outgoing or missed. There were calls to each other yesterday. She is playing me and has the best of both worlds.
We take S14 to skate rink and take girls out to Mcdonalds last night. We get in WW car and country music is playing. I know that OM is a country music listener. I say "Who else hates country music?" and turn off the radio. I hear a sarcastic snicker from WW who sat in back seat. She suggests the Christian station, so we are off. I am stewing inside and telling myself that I am glad she made up my mind for me. She is engaging me at McD's and I give her one word answers. She offers me gum, I say no. I am cordial but she knows I am angry. We get home, kids in bed, I change and sit on bed setting alarm. She gets her nightgown asks if I want light out and tells me goodnight. Goodnight.

Last edited by hopeful4her; 04/19/08 12:10 PM.

Me 47, WW 38
SS18, D15, D10

Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08

"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."