Have been thinking of you. Glad you made it through the visit to the lawyers - it is such a tough time, but you seem to be handling it well. You will be OK. You dont know what the future holds, and I hope your W realises before its too late what she will be missing out on. My advice is to support her decisions and be a good friend and then GAL and have some fun yourself. You are right you could have walked away yourself, but you didnt because you are a strong person. But I also think that your W is doing the best that she can at the moment. Dont let yourself get bitter about the money. Something good is going to come out of this.