I have felt this recently too a couple of times, mostly during being angry, both times I resisted the urge to tell him - by text of course his only method of communicating, you are trying to make me hate you as much as you hate yourself. I didnt say it but I thought it both times.
Me~34 H~38 D6.5
EA/PA-DEC.07
Moved out~Apr.13,08 Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08 No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009