What you're doing is the tuff stuff. It's so much easier to run then to stay and fight.
You know cat, I was like you. It was hard to sit still and believe that God had a plan for me, especially when I was in so much pain. Once you start to heal reasons become clearer and life becomes happier. Things and people come into your life that you couldn't have imagined in your wildest dreams. Your life will be good again whether that means with your husband or without him.
