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[Survival_Goddess]

Hi Wonder! Thanks for the feedback. I find this writing therapeutic....and Queenie...This time I am going to try the wrinkle my nose trick...yeah, that'll do it!

Just Journaling

Well the plot sickens...as they say. You all know the "waiting by the phone" feeling I was having. I finally got an e-mail from CG yesterday just as I was heading out the door to teach a class.

I know that I have not been a great correspondent and I hope this hasn't frustrated you. I don't know. I think this is what I meant by originally saying that I'm not really looking for a girlfriend. It's difficult to explain...I just tend to get nervous with relationships since my divorce. Probably something I should talk to a shrink about.

yet later he says

Like I said it's hard to explain. I still like you and want to go out but have this pulling back emotion.

Luckily for me Thursday night is the traditional DGF night out. I have mentioned before that there is a group of us that meet for dinner...all in various stages of D or post D. One of the gals had just finished a fling with a guy that she really liked, but it moved to quickly, got too hot too soon, he got scared and dumped her. She liked him a lot. She had tears in her eyes just talking about it. The other girlfriend has been in a very nice post-D relationship with a guy for going on 3 years now.

Her advice to me has always been "Keep your numbers up" date casually in the beginning and don't get serious about any one guy.
I have already decided to give Aston Martin guy a call, so no worries there.

But she was insightful enough to see that CG and I have a strong spark. He got back in touch after 8 months...We have a LOT in common, and the Chemistry is definitely there!

She said I should tell CG I am happy to hear from him, and give him an open-ended kind of an answering e-mail.

From what I know about him, I think therapy is an excellent idea. He obviously has issues about being hurt...(He was the LBS with an OM, etc...)

And my other friend was right when she said, "You want the whole package" meaning...I don't really want "Mr. Right Now" and just get my feelings hurt!

But I also have to say...CG is such a good kisser!


And I won't be seeing him for at least a week because this is his childcare week starting this afternoon.

OK...now I am getting distracted and I have to get ready for work.

Any words of wisdom would be appreciated here...

Thanks friends,
SG