So Wends. night we got into another fight. I was angry and bitter about her just not caring that we don't touch, talk or engage each other in any way shape or form. Maybe I am just to bitter to do anything about it anymore, but sometimes I just want to shake her. She has made it VERY clear to me that her 2 kids and her job mean more to her than anything else in her life right now. These are her words.
I have (I feel anyway) done everything I can to salvage this marriage and I don't know if I can find it in me to try anymore. She has just stopped trying to do ANYTHING for me at all. We are two seperate people living in the same house with nothing in common except the kids. I feel totally left out and abandoned and alone. We have gone to therapy and that did not help..she pretty much ignored the therapist.
Whenever we fight she throws our youngest boy up as a shield, telling me she can't believe I would be so selfish as to think aboue leaving and that I should learn to live with the marriage the way it is because she can't change who she is. Things like "I feel sorry for our son that he has a father that is so selfish that he can think about leaving him over sex". Well seeing as we have not had sex a whole lot over the last 2 years...I don't think it is about the sex! But...she doesn't see that.
Last night she did not come home from work...and she called me this morning to let me know she would not be home until late tonight...if she comes home at all so I should try and find someone to watch the kids Saturday morning. That is her MO though. Whenever we fight she takes off for the day, or for a couple days and then acts like nothing happened when she gets back.
Anyway...that was just a little vent. I don't think I am asking too much for her to throw a little love and understanding my way am I? Or to do more than just say I love you and maybe make me feel it a little?
