I just got to work and read everything. I don't need to tell you how sorry I am since this ending is not what you wanted.
We've "known" each other for a few months now (!!) and through all the crap you've been taking the ups and the downs, the insecurity, the uncertainty I have noticed how much stronger you sound. I know how it feels Liz. I know that deep inside there is a part of you dying, one you were holding on to, it's the disappointment of loosing after giving a hell of a fight, it's the emptyness of "what now?".
The greatest advice I've read here by Woog and others has been "keep breathing, keep walking". Don't you dare stop now to reconsider what has happened. You can do that later. Now you look ahead and keep your self busy.
For me it works to fight the urge to cry, not let myself to "slip" because it is much more difficult to "get up" again.
I am always here for you. You are a great lady and you have a happy life ahead of you. Take care of yourself and your Ds (and maybe consider a trip to Greece this summer...?).
