You sound very much like me, my h had an affair with someone he worked with, this probably went on for sometime, he continued to stay and say it was over, he also was in a very deep depression, threatened suicide. There was something mentioned about marriage to other women the whole 9 yards! H seemed to come back and was gung ho on making the marriage work, I thought we were, went away on a family vacation, and the day after we come back he tells me he has been with ow again, and is going to leave. He didn't and we head off to retrouvaille to work on communication, this seemed to be a turning point, and I thought we were on our way, next thing he has been in contact with a girl that he knew in his teens, she live far away so they communicate by email, and I find one, where he tells her she is his soulmate, and if she asked he would be on the next plane. Again he stays, and we continue to work on things. He is know very loving, and seems to be with me totally. Now I am the one with the problems, the pain, the hurt, just doesn't want to go away, the mental pictures just keep coming. So I know where you are coming from, its so very. There have been a couple of times where I have been very close to calling it quits, but so far haven't. I have made an appoint to see a C, I need someone to help me work through this, because I don't think I can do it on my own. So maybe that should be something to think about, talk to someone who can give you some direction, some guidance, and someone who you can get it all out too. Sorry I couldn't be more help!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
