I'm so sorry for you and your family. Be gentle with yourself and do not hang on to the regrets. Focus on all the positives.
Good news from your H!
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!