Well its done. I don't know how people have parties after these things. I never will understand it. Every other event in my life, I feel a sense of peace, excitement or at least understanding when its over. This, not so much. I am still at a loss. My life has changed so much in just a few months. I am still not sure how I am going to get by long term. I feel like I am just pretending that she is on a long trip, just probably not coming back. Because its gotten to the point that even if she ever did, I think I would now have to sacrifice a relationship with my entire family because they would disown me. No contact, no remorse, no sorry. Just nothing. But this is apparantly her. The woman that I committed to spending the rest of my life with. I guess I'm still in the shocked phase of recovery.
germ04,
I am really sorry about that. For the first few months post D, I was wondering around like a zombie. Looking back now, I realize God had me in the palm of His hand. I could think of no other way I would have made it through that time.
I know how hard this is. You need to allow yourself time to deal with this. You need to take time to relax and figure out what makes you happy.
I wish there was something more I could say......
I will pray for both of you.
Take Care,
RMG
Last edited by RMG; 04/18/0812:26 AM.
"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before." from "Good Will Hunting"
