welcome to piecing...all of the things you are feeling are normal!!! I hope otherwise we are both in trouble... I went through a 6+ month sepeartion...h in long term ea (so far only admits to ea) d talk and all that fun stuff...did the pleading crying etc...called ow to get info...etc...eventually when I gave up and let h just go...h decided to come home..well with my permission that is.
funny thing about the past...when it's not in your face you can deal with it much better...it's normal for the flashbacks and fear..with time they will dissepate...
I am also here in piecing...I warn you I have a tendancy to rant....there are lot's of folks here in piecing that have dealt with or are dealing with the same feelings you are having that will be along soon.
welcome abord the ride.
and oh!! most importantly don't stop being you...the you that you became when you finally gave up..the fun things you were doing for yourself and the boys...keep it up!! LL
