It is now about a week since I last kissed my wife hello and goodbye, and I try my best to keep my hands off her, which is difficult because she is just so... touchable. I also don't tell her ILY anymore. Maybe it is just my imagination but I think she is more distant than ever. The sadness is overwhelming. My mom phoned just now to tell me that her sister had a stroke last night, and she cant talk anymore. I started crying for my aunt but also because I feel like I have had a stroke. Or should have one. I am on AD's but I don't take them regularly, stupid bugger that I am.

My wife is going to watch a DVD now, I'll put on my cheerful, I have a wonderful future planned with or without you, face and join her.


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