Saving Myself

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I realized that is the same feeling I was having when SBH first found out about the As. Like, f-u for being hurt now - this is about ME, not about you. I love you, I didn't leave you, I was about to decide not to leave you anyway, and f-u for all of a sudden being so worried about what I'm doing when before you just left me alone and didn't even know how lonely I was, even though I told you over and over again.

Hi- Thought I'd drop in on your post! I know exactly how you feel when you say this!!For 8 freakin years I tried to tell him we had a problem then when I started the A- THEN he started to worry about what I was doing and what was happening!

I was gonna add some more...but will stop for now. I have to think about how I want to say it! Sounds like your sitch has similarities to mine! Sorry to hear about all the legal trouble! Fortunately, when my H went and beat the crap out of OM and his friend- I was able to keep them from pressing charges! Actually, I think they were too embarrassed to admit they got thier a** kicked...

Anyway- feel free to email me privately or I can give you my aol im screen name....

Nice to meet you!