Well, Im taking an outlet this weekend I guess....I am having a get together tomorrow night and on Saturday night I am going out with some friends. I am looking forward to both.

I guess I am struggling with a few things right now. I see that my H is having a hard time with things. I know those things are mostly his feelings for the OW. In a way I want to be his friend. I want him to be able to talk to me. I know how he feels to love someone and then they are with someone else. I know the pain...but on the other hand I think to myself "good, he knows what losing someone you love feels like" I dont want to hear about him missing the OW. I could care less....then again I want him to feel comfortable talking to me, but I know he doesnt really want to tell me how much he misses her. He knows I dont want to hear it and he is probably trying to spare my feelings for a change. It is just a struggle on what to do now. I know I should leave him to be with his thoughts and emotions, but How do I let him know he can talk to me. Im still also struggling with the fact he said if either of us want to date, we can. I have no plans of doing so until there is a final divorce just for moral reasons.

Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10