I know this is a ROUGH time for you and SAD both. We're here for you. I HAD to bounce you back up from page two!
Wanted to mention something about what SAD said on his thread (as I know you read each others)...I agree that we are all going through rough patches right now because it IS part of the healing process.
You have NO idea (well, I gues you DO ) how comforting it is to know that MANY of us are working through the same issues, that it's not a sign of "failure" or anything "wrong" with where we're at.