That IS a comfort, No? I think you're right. And I imagine there were similar forces for CJ too. I can't wrap my head and heart around the possibility that he is somehow deeply, chronically "amoral" or any such thing. It just doesn't "jive" with the person I've known all these years.
It was also part of why these events and the disclosures were so mind-blowing for me, and Sad too, I imagine.
Glad you're feeling better. The Nyquil may well have played a role there by perhaps supressing REM sleep or otherwise messing up your sleep stages.
