Hi, SB & Char...the "panic attacks" are definitely mild, and seem to have gotten better in past few days - I've been sick and taking NyQuil at bedtime, don't know if that makes a difference! But I think I am also feeling better about myself, particularly after learning so many things.
You know, I just want to say - I was VERY attracted to a guy in graduate school - we were both married. After I got separated I approached him about it, and he said he didn't want to leave his wife but we could have an A. I said, "No thanks." It was easy - I didn't want to cheat on anyone, even if it was someone ELSE'S spouse.
That memory just made me more confident that my lapse in judgement had a lot to do with my status as a burned out therapist and a stressed out mom than with my true moral chacter. Just thought I'd brag a little...