Saw H this morning for the first time in almost a week. It felt akward at first as I didn't know if I should throw my arms around him or what. I ended up behind him and had my arms wrapped around him. He put his hands on my arms and I thought it was to pull them off, but it was just to place them more strategically. I saw him a little later in the morning again and he seemed pretty happy to see me and we joked around. He said something about me finding younger guys...don't know if he was trying to joke, feeling insecure, feeling suspicious or what. Maybe he realizes I could move on if I wanted too.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
He said something about me finding younger guys...don't know if he was trying to joke, feeling insecure, feeling suspicious or what. Maybe he realizes I could move on if I wanted too.
H was very thoughtful lastnight, did some little things to help out. He is also taking care of some stuff for me today. We had some "quality" time that BBJ and Kalni would be jealous of. I won't go into detail, I am hoping it means something. I won't see him now until Sunday since I'll be out of town. Trying not to be yo-yo...trying to keep expectations low.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Count me jealous! Actually, I am not jealous, I am just really happy that things are moving in this direction for you. You have never seemed like a yo yo to me! Hope you have a nice weekend! And how great does it feel to put your arms around him?
Hi, I am still here, just not much to report. D did great over the weekend, but I'm not feeling great. Went to dr. and I'm on meds. The side effects are not so good. I was in great pain on Tuesday and I didn't feel any sympathy or love from H. Don't know why I thought I would. Sorry Woog, the yo-yo is back. I was stupid and had expectations and of course H didn't meet them. I suggested today that he talk to his T about either MC or DC. I don't think he will ask about either because that just isn't him. D's are starting to get more and more confused. Life just isn't so hot today. As for running away with a young guy...it is sounding like a great idea.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Wish you weren't feeling sick! That always compounds things, doesn't it?
And sorry things are so uneven with H. That is why I recently gave my H a dealine to get off the fence. I will be heading to couple's counseling or therapy for/with S regarding our D, depending on whether or not H can "pick a side" this weekend...
Not at all saying for you to do that, just saying I understand the frustration/weariness.
I am glad I don't have a hot young guy on my doorstep b/c I too would be tempted today
I am just glad you are still alive and kicking, I have missed you!!
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