Totally Lost after 23 years

[CBK]

Thanks Addie - my life is just buzzing around right now. I was so happy last night and this morning when she said goodbye - why did I have to read that friggin' journal... Should I at least say that as long as she is involved with him - we will have a hard time becoming friends or something? I know this is HER decision, I do want her to stay and want to connect again emotionally with her. I know she isn't there, may not get there, but I do want to save my marriage. Maybe I should just try and connect in MC since it won't happen at home right now. I am so confused. I know I am not supposed to talk about OM at all, but is it safe in MC just to say I don't like it. But that doesn't matter to her if I like it or not. I guess I just have to let the river run its course.

Groan.