hey sam... thanks for stopping by my thread this is the first time i've read yours, can you lead me to any other threads of yours?
i'm thinking about your sitch and you calling your acts "horrible" and commiting them to documented files in court?
(okay everybody, this is the part where charcoal shoots off her waw mouth and says the wrong thing...)
but, honestly... honestly i don't understand...
(okay, maybe before I make wicked assumptions, i'll just wait for more info..)
in the meantime, listen... i cheated on my H when we were just going out we didn't deal with it correctly then it was a lot of H being mad and a lot of me being sorry and wishing he understood what powered it i'm not saying he pushed me into doing that but a little understanding on his part would have gone a long long way and H acknowledges that i think no, he does...
i thought i was "forgiven" but i wasn't and it fueled incredible resentments on both parts we swept it under the table, attempting to change the channel on the TV before three words about infidelity were uttered... and then, having heard three words about infidelity on the tv H'd scowl at me wounds all still fresh, years after the event...
gosh, we've been together twelve years and i've felt understood for about the last two weeks
so...
that's good
and this time i'm not feeling like i've been stripped naked and whipped and doused in acid for my sin
which is nice you know?
i feel like a person
with rights
the right to save myself and make my life what i want it to be
shoot to even have the right to want life a particular way...
