Cake eating or progress?

[Trixi]

In 24 hours, I will be en route to the airport with my H to go to Costa Rica for 12 days.

Since his return from FL and his announcement that we are exclusively dating, he has backed off a bit. Not a ton, but I can tell the 'shine' he had for me when he first came back has worn off some. It might be work pressure that is causing the change- I sure hope so. Part of the shine he had when he came back is that I had made a DRAMATIC hair change (short to very long-he likes long hair) and I also did some special girly things. Well, now the novelty of these changes has worn off. Not that he doesn't appreciate the changes, but just that they are "just so 'last week'".

Argh! so nervous about this trip! The last time we went to a hot/humid climate was in 2001 when he decided he was going to leave in 2006. It was an awful vacation. At least this time my thyroid isn't messed up (Doc just upped my dosage as I am still at the high end of acceptable), but I have to be honest- because the nail in the coffin came from a 'vacation', there is a lot of pressure to make *this* vacation the most memorable, fun, exciting,fill in the blank, vacation he has EVER had.

A band we like is coming to the local winery in the summer (end of July). I TM'd H to see if I should pick up tix. He wrote back saying "yes, get 4". Because this sitch is so stinking volatile, my first thought was "Yay! he figures we'll still be seeing eachother" but then I had a bad thought of "Boo. he thinks we'll be broken up and so this way we can take other people as our dates." (It's General Seating, so it's not like we would have to sit near each other if we went separately.) Roller coasters in Limbo Land SUCK!

So very nervous- wish me luck