Ahhh...SBH-SAM, everyone has similar thoughts from time to time. None of us are perfect. I believe the point is to realize that the past is the past. To move forward requires forward thinking. Taking those first steps builds momentum, then all of a sudden, I expect you'll find yourself feeling better about a good many things.
I say this because it has been this way with my W. She has complained about how she's not pleased with the way she's dealt with the children in the past, not happy with the state of the house, not happy with the A, not happy with not having any hobbies, and so on and so on. But you know what, she's really made a goal of improving these things and I've found that it carries momentum into the next thing she chooses to do.
Just remember that just changing one thing, one dynamic, oftentimes dominos into changing ancillary things...thus the change begets change. It doesn't happen overnight, but as long as you persist, you will reap the rewards.
