A bit more journaling, Vegas has been interesting and I was really looking forward to making my first trip to it. Why I didn't see an emotional aspect to the trip is beyond me but I've at time struggled a little while here. Why has there been a bit of struggle? Simple, I'm in a really cool and exciting place without anyone to share it with. All around me are happy couples, holding hands, smiling, laughing, dining together, cuddling up, kissing and what not. Then you've got business travelers chatting on their phones with wives, girlfriends, husbands and boyfriends. I seem to be the only person eating alone.
In years past my wife and I would have been chatting on the phone or emailing each other from our blackberries. We'd be sharing what seemed like every detail with one another. Now the berry is silent, save for a couple of friends that have sent a text or two.
So Vegas has been visually exciting, yet anti-climatic for me, the thrill of sharing the excitement isn't there. The sights, sounds have all be great entertainment yet hollow for me. Watching the fountain display at the Bellagio seemed to sum it up for me. A beautiful show with lots of people around cheering, clapping and talking to one another about it. Yet the show seemed to amplify the fact I was watching it by myself and didn't have anyone to share it with, to laugh and cheer with, to feel that excitement with.
I will remember my first trip to Vegas with fondness because I have enjoyed experiencing it. But there will be that tinge of sadness too.
Good news though, I got upgraded on my flight home! This is very welcome news since I'm taking the red eye back tonight with all the drunks. (Uh, that won't be me.)
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
