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[MidwesternGirl]

naej:

remember, they do this: come back and leave again and many times they have to do this a few times before all is said and done.

S and H have always had a special relationship and that is the only person H has where he can feel he is not threatened because he cannot talk to me because i can become emotional meaning i might cry. h has always been a loner as well. their talks do not consist of very personal details of what h has done. most of it is someone to just talk to, to get h's mind off of things but then again, s has been talking to him about laying off the alcohol.

about my H finding his own place. he makes under 28k per year so there is no way he can do that unless he were to use credit cards. that is totally out of the question.

using my H as a cash machine--i am one who rarely asks him for money and he takes it upon himself to make purchases.

with the way food prices have risen in our area, one of the highest in the country, it is no surprise that many people need at least two jobs to survive. i am serious about this.

my son is in the process of getting a job.

again, this is just another blip on the screen sort of thing and i do not expect h to be gone very long.

my kids saw this coming without my saying a thing but there is nothing they could have done differently.

no, i dont think this is a huge blow to me after our talks and intimacy. i have come to realize it is just part of the process. it does not mean that he does not love me, he does, he is just mixed up in the head due to his drinking.

god is in control.