Tested the water last night about talking about 2ndOM. Not the right time. I have just left it that I told her I want to talk about it (not fight). She is getting worked up about my family. She wanted to talk to them about her feelings about the baby. I have convinced her to let me deal with my family. She only wanted to help me with them, but it is best if I do it. She seems to be of the mind at the moment that life is not good for people in general and we should just get used to it. I told her I cant accept that and I will always stive to make my life and the life of her and my baby better.
I can see this thing with OM going on for a while yet. I am not ok with that, but if thats the way its got to be, then I will just keep on looking after myself. I just have this feeling that even if she calls it off with him, he will try to keep it going. Cross that bridge when we get there.
Basically I feel a bit in limbo at the moment. I have brought us so far, but now W needs to do a bit to push us a little further. I know that is the wrong attitude, and I will continue to improve myself.
On a lighter note, I have just read a book called `she comes first`, quite an interesting read. Cant wait to try out some of that!
Going to `have a word` with my Dad today I think. Last time I spoke to my Mum she sounded scared of me.
I think that next week I might put away the sofa bed that I had been sleeping on and see what she says.
Cheers
Steve
Me 27 W 30 M 2yrs/ T 5yrs Expecting our first child Sept 08 warning bomb (has feelings for someone) 21/12/08 I found out about OM (by snooping) 14/1/08 Living together.
