I closed the door on this for good

[HOPEFULinCALI]

Jay,

I'm inclined to agree with jmw on this one. I know I am not done with my M in part because I am not there emotionally. Mental I'm exhausted and some days I want to tell myself to get on with my life, but any emotion whether it be sadness, anger, resentment etc. means I am not yet ready to move on. Of course my H may make that decision for me someday and of course that is me.

You mention your boys and W walking out on them. If it were just you two it would be a different scenario? I don't have any children, but I can certainly sympathize with not wanting to see them go through any more pain, but do you think ending it all will make her a better mother? If not, perhaps the better alternative may be to wait it out a bit longer and give her an opportunity to be a better mother (with or without you) and better wife but with the bonus of keeping the family together.

I hope you do not think that I am questioning your decision. I am sure that you did not come to this decision lightly. In either case I wish you all the best of luck and God Bless you and your boys.