Well its done. I don't know how people have parties after these things. I never will understand it. Every other event in my life, I feel a sense of peace, excitement or at least understanding when its over. This, not so much. I am still at a loss. My life has changed so much in just a few months. I am still not sure how I am going to get by long term. I feel like I am just pretending that she is on a long trip, just probably not coming back. Because its gotten to the point that even if she ever did, I think I would now have to sacrifice a relationship with my entire family because they would disown me. No contact, no remorse, no sorry. Just nothing. But this is apparantly her. The woman that I committed to spending the rest of my life with. I guess I'm still in the shocked phase of recovery.
