Today is the first day of the rest of my life....

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Thanks for stopping by Andy and Yoyo. You guys have been with me through the beginning and are always terrific support.

At one time your online name was hopeless, you changed it to hope, now perhaps it's time to change it to Full of Hope.

Let's not get ahead of ourselves...things are getting better but there is still a lot for me to get through.

Today I was talking to my co-worker and I realized for the first time that I really am a different person....I learned something....I'm not reverting back to my old ways. Last weekend, the guy I'm dating (B) made me dinner. We had a terrific time, and had planned on watching a movie after we finished. In the meantime, my niece text me that she was going to be out and that we should join them. I really wanted to go because I wanted her to meet B and she really wanted me to come. I told B about it and he said whatever you want to do is fine. I knew that he didn't really want to go....he was exhausted...but I did, so I told him that I wanted to go and so we did. In the past, with my X, I would always do what he wanted...when he wanted...how he wanted. I told myself that I wasn't going to fall into the same ruts again with a new relationship. However, during my first post-D relationship...I did. The first guy wasn't very open to any ideas but his own, so when we started to conflict....I shut down....closed myself off to him...did what he wanted because it was easier and I avoided that conflict that I so hate. So in hindsight....maybe I am learning something.

We ended up watching the movie the next day. It was called "Into the Wild". I usually only watch chick flicks but B recommended that I get this one and I was so happy I did. It turned out to be a great movie....very insightful.