Before I met my H, I had a nearly 10 year relationship (from 18 to 27+) with a man I loved very deeply. In my heart of hearts I knew we weren't right for each other, but I still loved him and was very loyal to him. When we went our separate ways, I was absolutely devastated. I didn't have any desire to date anyone for almost a full year. That's when I met my husband. My relationship with H has been so much more fulfilling than with my ex-boyfriend up until now. But what I'm thinking is maybe my last relationship prepared me for the relationship with my H and my relationship with my H is preparing me for an even better relationship somewhere in the future. I dunno. Just rambling thoughts. But sometimes I wonder if it's possible to love someone exclusively your whole adult life. Seems like so many people lose the spark, have affairs, drift apart, etc. or maybe they stay together but end up resenting their mate in the end. I sort of feel like I'm losing it a little.
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence
