On the tape was a call made to him and a lot of sexual innuendos. Now I only have her side of the call, but it was obvious they talk sexually and often. The C is for our relationship, but at the last mtg T wanted to work w/just me next time. I have some things I am working on (Depression, Codependency) in hopes to be "me" again. So I do feel responsible to a degree for her doing this. She was not getting what she needed from me...sex intimacy, closeness, so she has found it elsewhere. As for the outcome, I want to feel whole again, full of life, and confident in everything I do. Which hopefully will result in my wife staying and working on "us". I have been like a stalker lately and I hate it, but I wanted some confirmation to my gut feeling SOMETHING was up. So for all I know they just play on the phone like that, and don't actually have intercourse. Or maybe there is sexual activity, w/o intercourse...then again, that seems pretty unrealistic huh! So I am stuck trying to figure out what I want to do about it all. Like I said I want to tell his W & confront him, but I think it will just make my matters w/W worse. So it is just a weird time for me.
ME 33 W 37 Together 8 M: 5+ disconnected: 5 D: 2 D: 3
