Still Tryin's 2nd piecing

[S.T. _I Made It!]

We haven't talked about it again. well, I've brought it up indirectly, but H doesn't seem to want to discuss it. I mentioned that teachers want to meet asap. Even the teacher mentioned to me that maybe public school isn't for him, but that was something we as parents need to discuss. I hope she mentions that when we meet.

What my H just doesn't get, is that even teachers get frustrated with the school system. I've talked to several and they all wish they could teach the way THEY wanted to, instead of following all these guideline/testing requirements. So it's not like I'm being picky or something.

And even if I AM being picky, whats wrong with wanting the best education available to meet my childs needs so that he can learn the best way he can.

This is is where my H and I butt heads. He's actually starting to come around a bit though. for ex. he use to be a pill popper that just did whatever the doc told him too. now at least he's starting to think for himself. He sees all the crazy side affects that drugs have and is starting to second guess things. It was funny, I remember sometime after the sitch he saw a drug commercial and they were listing the side affects afterwards and he says, I think I'd rather have the disease then the side affects.

anyways, what I was going to mention yesterday about it being my fault....

I know that when someone is not happy that they tend to nitpick. Well, I did that and my H did that. I was unhappy and would gripe about public school being aweful, before I let H decide where s9 would go. So, since H being a public school kid, probably took some offense to it.
On the other hand, H was unhappy and annoyed by the things I did, like buying organic food, being in control of s9's education, etc.

Oh how I wish I didn't talk down on the public school, and had involved H more in my decision to homeschool. Part of me was afraid he wouldn't let me, so I took over more control, and the other part just wanted to have control period since H wasn't hardly there for s9's first 4 years.

I know that the school decision was just a symptom of what was going on in our R. although, I do think it's something he's desiring (for our son to go to school) but I think it was not the main problem like he made it sound.

I remember he griped about me being obsessed with organic a neighbor told me. I laughed and said, there's not even half organic stuff in our pantry. we have lays chips and all kinds of other stuff. But that wasn't the problem, it had just become a symptom. NOW, my H actually BOUGHT an organic clifbar! I thought, how ironic. He even mentioned doing a colon cleanse a couple weeks ago!

Sooooo, I was really hoping the school issue would dissolve a bit, but not yet. Maybe I need to talk to him about how important it is to me, and how hurt I was by him "taking it away from me" (it was my decision to submit, but that's what HE wanted, and I gave in). I would think he already knows this though.

hmmmmmmmm. I really need to pray about this. I wish I could remember to pray more often. We lead too busy of lives.


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