Hey...My first thread was under my H's name - Sadbuthopeful, it's called "Sadbuthopeful's SAM"...I didn't do much to link back to it when I started my own thread...sorry!

Sadbuthopeful has several threads that probabably explain the sitch best...I am a (well, was) a clinical psychologist - with a 3 year old and a 5 year old, not able to make enough money to pay back student loans w/o working full time, NEVER wanted to work full time with small kids, worked SO HARD to get the #%$#@ Ph.D. so I could make some money and ENJOY my life. DID NOT WORK!

So, naturally, I had affairs with 2 clients (consecutively). Booooo. H went to client/A #2's house to tell him to lay off, b/c he WOULD NOT leave me alone once I was caught by H via emails and realized what a quadruple FOOL I'd been. H had to go to court for assault & battery, that was tough. Also I reported myself to the Board of Psychology, so had to go through humiliating investigation, etc. Surrendered my license after realizing (with help from a good consultant) that I really DO NOT LIKE being a therapist. Hard to admit when you've sacrificed so much time & $$$ to do it, and thought it was what you wanted since you were 13 years old!

Anyway, not to hijack your thread, but that's it in a nutshell. I'm pretty depressed, struggling with shame & anger, needing to make $$ so we don't go bankrupt, but not sure I can do it. I'm interested in what you're looking for on this thread - maybe it'll help me, too!

I'll try to read up on your sitch more -- got the 3 & 5 year old home today - they're playing nicely for now, but they're starting to get revved up - oh, and the dryer just buzzed...a woman's work is never ever done!!!!!

peace!

Sam