Hope4us' Struggle, part 2

[Hope4us]

Thanks Everyone.

Saffie, Thanks. I know that's probably the case and I'd just forgotten that because of the emotions of all this. I appreciate your reminder.

Puppy, I think I'll take your advise tonight if she's still ignoring anything I say.

DMB, Last night I went out for a while. I NEEDED to get out. If I'd have stayed there I would have exploded. Now that the weather is getting nicer I'll be golfing, working in the yard, going for walks etc. We've got the sprinkler dude coming Monday since we developed a leak over the winter. Once that's fixed I've got a number of yard projects to complete. So things there will start picking up soon.

Grumpy, Thanks. I know I should just let it roll off my back like water off a duck, but after so long, it just get's hard to take.

I mean, this is probably the third time I've gone through this. After OMW found out, she was like this for probably a month, but then started responding, but then started communicating with OM again. I know there was NC for a while, but started back up. Then early Feb she was like this after exposure of her STD. Probably a month or so and she started responding, but then contact started up again and that's when I exposed to the kids. So now she's like this again. I know I just need to give it time, but the longer this goes on, the less I care what the outcome is.

So now that I believe I have the best chance of NC sticking, I know I need to be patient, but it's just so darn hard. And her anger again, and again, and again, just how much can you take without throwing in the towel?